Saturday, September 10, 2022

A list of all issues.

 This is just a list of links to all of our previous issues. Specifically the LucidPress links that open in a new window. I am making this post to put everything in one spot at the top so it is easy to find. If I ever manage to put the content from the last issue into a magazine format, I will add it here. In the meantime, that content can be found as blog posts below. Thank you.

Summer Solstice 2017: Community Harvest

Fall Equinox 2017: Into the Shadows

Winter Solstice 2017: Reclaiming the Fire

Spring Equinox 2018: Seeds of Intention

Summer Solstice 2018: Gathering with Gratitude

Fall Equinox 2018: Elements:: Earth

Winter Solstice 2018: Elements:: Air

Spring Equinox 2019: Elements:: Water

Summer Solstice 2019: Elements:: Fire

Fall Equinox 2019: Ancestors and Spirits

Thank you all, I hope you enjoy all of these still.






The Center Spiral

Saturday, December 28, 2019

We are on indefinite hiatus

Dear Readers,
For the past 2 ½ years, you have sent me your articles, pictures, artwork, and poetry. You have written on topics when I asked for them, you have shared your stories, you’re thoughts, you’re recipes, and you’re taste in music. All of you created the content of The Center Spiral for 11 issues, and I cannot thank you enough.
However, the task of organizing, building, compiling, advertising, and planning all of these amazing things into a cohesive whole has been monumental. In fact, it is too monumental for one person, especially when it is not that one person’s full time job. Unfortunately, I am that person, and I am unable to do this anymore.

Because of this, The Center Spiral will be going on hiatus indefinitely. There may be a time when we start again in another form, something better organized, better planned, and better manned, but I do not know when, or if, that will be.
We do have a plethora of submissions for the upcoming Rites of Passage issue, and I have not failed to consider those. We will publish each article as it’s own blog post at thecenterspiral.blogspot.com over the next couple of weeks, and share each one on our Facebook page. Any paid for ads will be shared this way as well, and refunded. The paypal will shut down, the email will remain open, though rarely checked, the blog will remain active, and the Facebook page will simply go silent, all after January 5, 2020.
I would like to give a massive thank you to everyone who served on my staff. I can promise you, this would have happened a long time ago if I did not have wonderful people helping me get things done.
I would also like to thank everyone who contributed to any issue. Especially if you did so regularly. This magazine would not have happened had I not had content from our contributors to fill the pages. Every article, poem, story, work of art and picture made this amazing.
Thank you to everyone who worked to make The Center Spiral happen. I am sorry I could not keep it going any longer. I appreciate your understanding.
With regret,
Emily Gabbert
Editor


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Musecraft with Phyllo Nova

with Phyllo Nova
A little more than a year ago, I wasn’t doing art, or anything for that matter. I was pre-diabetic, had suffered my second heart attack (by 45 no less), and was close to 400 lbs. I was on a litany of pills that were essentially letting me die slowly. I was ready to kill myself. But there were people around, so I waited.
If you hang around with a fractured soul long enough you're bound to lose an “I”. All of the “self” in me dissolved and I realized I was not alone in this mental silence that I suddenly found myself in. 
I studied several forms of magic in my youth, and was familiar with pushing around my will. I gave the presence in my mind permission to speak. It expressed to me without language that all would be ok, and that if I could suffer death then I could suffer any lesser fate gladly. I had to move forward as though this embodiment of the cosmos had blessed me. That was my truth.
Over the next year, this work has flowed through me. The subject matter comes from the spirits and teachers I encounter on my psychic excursions and deep meditations, and it’s a way to express gratitude for all they have taught me about existing. During these psychic excursions, I have learned what I call horcrux magic. Much of what I paint is an expression of this spellwork. 
I mostly work in acrylic and watercolor, some pen and marker as well. I like these media mostly because they are the most readily available. I’m really just getting started. One spirit, Luka the Joyous, wants to be manifested in wood and metal, so I’m currently working on that. I will work in whatever medium my current spirit guide inspires me to.
My advice to other artists is to see your art as THE thing of value, not as a commodity or price tag; it’s value begins in the present when brush meets canvas.

Please visit my website Phyllonovaart.com. I am currently working on a Tarot deck, as a thesis on the theosophy and practice of horcrux magic. I hope that you are inspired by my artwork, and please contact me at phyllonovaart@gmailcom to purchase my work, commission my art or calligraphy, or to get a Tarot card reading. Thank you for your sacred attention.







Pencraft with Chelsea Gilliam

Poetry by Chelsea Gilliam

Some days I want to curse the depth of my feelings. My emotional reservoir feels like an expansive pit that ends at a pool of lava, building a fire inside of me. Sometimes I worry I will not find someone with enough space in their life for all that I am. You see, I am a lot. I have a lot of opinions and plans I will start and never finish. My imagination has continued to expand with age, not diminish. I believe in love the size of the cosmos because I have felt things humans haven't yet created words to describe. I take up space. I dance. I yell. I give gifts to Mother Earth and talk to my divine self. I befriend animals and trees, and fungi and bees. I bring nature into my home. I have swam naked in every body of water I have found.I have no desire to squeeze myself into the corner of someone's existence. I will never be willing to part with pieces of who I am to accommodate an illusory boundary of a limitless feeling.

________________________
The chill caresses my bones
one last time
reminding me discomfort
is just a breeze away.
New life emerges
from the seemingly barren surroundings
I feel the seasons changing who I am,
year after year.
Leaves that once turned themselves,
are waiting for my hand.
I am turning the wheel.
I am leaving my fingerprints,
and scratches
on the backs of
clouds and rainbows.

_____________________
Today is the day.
Today is the day I put down the broom you handed me. I've carried it since the moment I fell in love with you - to every conversation, every moon rise, every hello and goodbye. My hands, calloused with the work that was expected of me, became numb to gentle caresses. The bones- seemingly molded around the wooden handle were no longer capable of interlocking yours.
Today is the day.
Today is the day I refuse to sweep away uncomfortable discussions, expectations or past transgressions. I will no longer spend my time and energy cleaning messes I did not make. Today, I will use my worn fingertips to write my farewell in the dust on the floor.

_________________
Who do I thank
for you?
I can only imagine you chose me
because I needed to be reminded
of just how soft
souls begin.

You see, Love,
mine is calloused from
the nagging of unfulfilled desires,
atrophied from the emptiness
of exploration,
charred by the fire
I have swallowed,
and punctured by
the teeth of those I trusted.

It takes a lot of heat to light the coal
where my soul once rested.
My son, your resiliency reminds me
it is okay to bear my chest to pain -
to risk disappointment
for the reward of acceptance and
to get lost
in hopes I find someplace new.

Thank you for picking me
and bringing everything I left
in the stars
down with you.

_______________
I want to spend the rest of my life
smelling of patchouli
and tasting of ginger.
I want to grow a garden of herbs,
fill my shelves with tinctures,
bath in the ghost
of sage and palo santo,
drink coffee in an oversized shirt
on Sunday mornings,
and count the moons as time slows
slows
slows
down.

How cruel it is to be human.
Our most vivid images -
those of happiness
and fulfillment,
regardless how elementary
the concept,
elude existence
while our greatest fears
are played out
day after night
after day. 


_____________________
When the dirt is your easel and the sky is your canvas, the price of your art is measured in madness.

______________
The ultimate death is not a lack of breath, it is a purgatory of stillness in the soul.

___________
I do not know everything about who I am.  I am ever-changing.  I do know, however, who I will never be again.

Bio: My name is Chelsea.  I have written poetry under the alias @Night_Owl_Poesy on instagram for the last year and a half. Writing is one important way I practice self-care.  I am a doctor by day and a secular witch by night.  Yes, we exist.

The Yule Cat by Balder Bloodaxe


The Yule Cat
By Balder Bloodaxe

Soon it will be Yule.  It is a time of feasting and rejoicing.  A time to implore the Gods with Blot and offerings to ensure a bountiful new year.  The weather is crisp and dry. Parties abound. Many make a Julebord for friends and for those less fortunate.  The Others go about and wish each other Joy and Good Will!  

But when I was a kitten of 3 or 4 years, I was told by one of the Elders on the farm that it was also the time of The Yule Cat!  Now, looking back on it, (I am in my 9th year now) I’m not convinced that The Yule Cat is real so much as a scary story used to keep the Little Ones from misbehaving.  But then again, you can never be too careful!

The Yule Cat lives in a cave up in the hills.  And he is ENORMOUS!! Bigger than your house! He has long, sharp teeth and huge, shaggy paws   He is terrible to look upon! His claws are razor sharp and immensely long. A single swipe from one of those paws can sever a full grown person in two!  His tail is strong and can easily smash a car or take down a tree, and if you take a swat from The Yule Cat’s tail … well let’s just say you want to do anything you can to keep that from happening!

But The Yule Cat doesn’t live alone, oh, no!  The Yule Cat is only the pet of the huge, ugly, troll-woman, Gryla and her lazy Jotun husband, Leppaludi.  They all live in the cave together with their mischievous, ne’er-do-well offspring, The Yule Lads. These Evil Beings lurk outside people’s homes in the dark, intent upon taking their Yule dinners, or kidnapping and eating the children!  But not all children. No, only the children who have not received new clothing in time for Yule.  

The Elder used to recite this poem to us as we sat in the barn.  We huddled together in the straw, my Litter Mates and I, in a big jumble in the loft, warm and cozy as The Elder scared us silly:

“He opens his glaring eyes wide,
  The two of them glowing bright,
  His craggy back arched up high,
  Oh, what a terrible sight!

  He roams outside,
  In the freezing Yule snow,
  But his hunger isn’t for mice!
  For if he sees old rags on your feet,
  He’ll gobble you up in a trice!

  But if he sees new socks or shoes,
  When through the window he does peer,
  He’ll go away with a vicious hiss,
  And not come back for a year.”
  
The Elder also told us of the Old Times, back when She was a kitten.  When The One would go hunting for wild boar and The Woman would prepare it with berries that were gathered in the Fall and with grain from the fields, freshly harvested, and fresh milk!  She said that those were the best meals that She ever ate, and that Yule was Her favorite time of the year. I think She was right about that. I love Yule time! I don’t get wild boar on Yule, but I do get freshly smoked ham, cured right there on The Farm.  And it’s prepared in the fashion of the Old Times, with berries and grains, and fresh milk. And as the Sunna rides her chariot over the horizon, and the Yule lights begin to twinkle, I cuddle up with The One, in front of the Yule fire. And I make sure he is wearing new clothes!  Because even though I’m pretty sure that The Yule Cat is just a scary story, meant to frighten kittens, I don’t want to take any chances. I am sworn to protect The One, after all. And … his lap is a very adequate substitute for the straw in the loft. The warmth from the Yule log makes me happy, and while it’s not exactly the same as cuddling with my Litter-Mates in the barn, it’s pretty close.  It makes me purr. And that is very good.  

Good Yule to you and yours!

Copyrighted images © Þórdís Tryggvadóttir

The fragment of poem adapted here is from
The English version of Jóhannes' úr Kötlum 
Poem translated by Vignir Jónsson




The Discovery by Emaleth Summer

The Discovery by Emaleth Summer
It was on my thirteenth birthday that I discovered the place, no coincidence I’m sure. One evening, while walking from the meeting house, I saw her. A great white wolf was standing at the edge of the woods, not quite leaving the shadows of the trees. No one else seemed to notice her, nor did they notice my interest. Without a sound she beckoned me to follow. Of course I could not; the woods were forbidden to us children because of the dangers, and so many were present. I walked on, pretending to see nothing, until I reached my home.
All through supper I sat silent, barely touching my meal in anticipation. My distance was not remarked upon. My parents were used to such melancholy behavior, even on such celebrations. I was the outcast; the child no one played with and everyone thought to be different. Had they truly known, I may not have lived out my childhood in peace.
When it came time to retire, I went to my room as I did any other night. I brushed my hair, climbed onto my straw mat, and laid my head down to rest. As my eyes closed, I beheld a vision; the wolf was calling to me once more, very close now. I rose, threw the window sash, and looked down to see the wolf below me, silver in the light of the full moon. Again she beckoned. This time, I came.
I crept slowly through the hut, careful not to wake my parents. The door always creaked when opened, but this night it was mysteriously silent. It then became clear to me that some higher power wanted me to be in those woods this night. It was an alien thought to me for, up to this point, I had never believed in any God that I had been told of. Yet the words rang true. Someone was calling me, and without a sound.
I followed the wolf through the village, careful to be silent. I carried no torch, as the light would have attracted attention at such an hour, but I could see quite clearly by the light of the full moon. No clouds were in the sky to disrupt this light, and everything the beams touched seemed to be in the light of day. I continued to follow through the field to the edge of the woods. The wolf turned, seeming to assure himself that I still followed. Frightened yet bold, I held my head high and stepped onto the barely visible path.
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There is nothing like the woods at night. All creatures of the night join their songs to form a beautifully eerie chorus. Moonbeams wind through the trees, casting shadows that take their places on the grassy stage. And when the wind blows through the bushes, the shadows begin their timeless dance. It’s magical.
And it was into this setting that I ventured that night, into the depths of the woods behind my village. By way of a narrow path, formed by a multitude of animals over the years, I found my way to an ancient place forgotten by many. Through the trees I walked, ducking to avoid low hung branches, until at last I came upon my destination: a clearing, calm and peaceful, the largest in all the woods. Even with the wind blowing fiercely throughout the woods, this clearing was untouched. Not an animal stirred, not a branch moved, not a cricket sang. The wolf stopped, turned on me, and then appeared to vanish. I more carefully examined my surroundings.
In the center of this clearing sat a large, flat slab of rock, weathered and polished to a shine by the ages. It rested on two smaller boulders, forming a type of table. And as I drew near, I could begin to make out the carvings on the altar. They were ancient symbols of the Goddess in her three forms, displays of the Lord and Lady throughout the seasons, and marks of the Elements that surround our lives. It was a place of worship and a place of ancient power as well. 
I had seen these symbols once, in an old book I had found beneath the floorboards of our hut. I believed it to be my grandmother’s , but did not show it to anyone. The old religion was banished from this land long ago, and any who was outspoken against the Christian God was banished as well. And so I had held my tongue all these years. Now, as I beheld these symbols, much became clear to me.
As my eyes moved over the stone, I saw that the very book I had just envisioned lay open on the altar. And there, on the other side with her arms raised high in the air, was a very old woman with white hair. She seemed to see me not, yet I knew she was aware of my presence.
Like the breeze, I heard her whisper, “So mote it be.”
She lowered her arms, looked up at me, and spoke at last. “You know not who you are, though it is buried deep within. You know not your power, though it is inside. Let this night show you at last your nature. You are a witch, by heritage and by power. You are my granddaughter, loving and pure. I had hoped to teach you, but my time came too soon. Take this book, that it may guide. Remember this place, that you may gain knowledge and access to the Powers That Be. Your life is yours to live, the power yours to use.”
She seemed to vanish as surely as the wolf. When I turned, the wolf was again at my side, and I knew they were connected. The wolf had led me to her, and carried her message.
I spent the remainder of that night reading through the book. It contained information about the Goddess and the God, the many Sabbats that were part of the religion, and ways to rule the Elements. Walking back to my hut before sunrise, I felt as if I were truly seeing the world around me for the first time. The Goddess, the Elements—they were everywhere, waiting to be acknowledged. 

From that night forth, I have returned to the clearing many a night. I have studied her book of shadows, and learned much. I have traveled the world searching for others, but those tales must wait. But through it all, the great white wolf, whose name I learned was Korin, has been by my side. She has warned me of danger, stopped me from my mistakes, and helped to use my power for good.